Emotional Vomit: A Daughter's Reckoning with the Mother She Needed and Woman Became

Some wounds don't bleed - they fester quietly, passed down through generations, shaped by silence, and carried by daughters who never had the language to name what hurt them.Emotional Vomit: A Daughter's Reckoning With the Mother She Needed and the Woman She Became is a raw, unflinching memoir told in three voices: letters written to a mother who may never read them, letters written to a younger self who needed to be heard, and essays that excavate the complicated terrain between the two. Together, they form a portrait of one woman's journey through maternal wounds, chosen family, grief, and the radical act of healing herself.Kiana I. Howard writes with the kind of honesty that makes readers feel less alone. Drawing from her own experiences with emotional neglect, rejection, and the particular silence of Black womanhood, she offers language to women who have spent years unable to find words that fit. Through reparenting, radical compassion, and the hard-won peace that comes from choosing yourself over and over again, Kiana charts a path not toward reconciliation - but toward something better: freedom.This is not a book about fixing your mother. It is not a book about forgiveness as an obligation. It is a book about what becomes possible when you stop waiting for an apology that isn't coming, and start building something new from what remains.