Held By His Hands: A Survivor's Journey from the Depths of Abuse to Strength, Healing, and God's Redeeming Love

Held by His Hands is a deeply personal and faith-filled memoir that traces Ruth Carroll's journey through childhood abuse, trauma, fear, and years of surviving in environments that were meant to protect her but instead became places of harm. With raw honesty and vivid storytelling, Ruth shares what it was like to grow up carrying wounds no child should ever bear while searching for safety, love, and a sense of belonging.As the story unfolds, readers walk beside a little girl drawn toward the quiet warmth of a church across the street, never fully understanding why her heart longed for it so deeply. That longing would later become an anchor through years of darkness, including an abusive marriage entered in an attempt to escape one painful life, only to find herself trapped in another. Yet even in the midst of fear, threats, shame, and hopelessness, God's presence continued to pursue her gently and faithfully.More than a story about surviving abuse, Held by His Hands is a story about restoration. It is about what happens when a life marked by pain slowly begins to rediscover peace, identity, purpose, and the healing love of God. Through moments of heartbreak, resilience, humor, motherhood, faith, and rebuilding, Ruth invites readers into an honest account of what healing can look like when someone refuses to give up.Written with emotional depth, lyrical warmth, and unwavering hope, Held by His Hands speaks to survivors, seekers, and anyone who has ever wondered if life after brokenness is possible. It is a reminder that even in the darkest moments, there is still a hand reaching through the storm, holding on when strength feels gone.