In the Impetus of Its Fire

After a devastating trauma, Cate is no longer certain she wants to stay awake.Sleep offers what her waking life cannot: a vivid medieval world where she is cherished, threatened, and intensely alive.But as her real life begins to fracture, her marriage to Peter thinning under the weight of unspoken grief, the dream stops being refuge and starts becoming necessity.The boundaries blur. Choices made in one world echo in the other. And the life Cate is escaping may be the only one she has left to lose.A psychological novel about obsession, self-deception, and the dangerous comfort of disappearing. Trigger Warnings Hate, Discrimination & Oppression- Sexism & misogyny- Workplace harassmentSex and Sexual Violence- Dubious consent scenarios- Gang rape- Incest- Paedophilia & grooming- Rape- Sexual assault- Sexual harassment- Sex trafficking- Sex work & sex slavery- Statutory rapeAbuse and Relationships- Abandonment- Adoption- Adult-minor relationships- Arranged, forced & coerced marriage- Child abuse- Emotional abuse- InfidelityMental Health and Suicide- Addiction- Amnesia & memory disorders- Anxiety & anxiety attacks- Depression- Dissociation & dissociative episodes- Dysphoria- Eating disorders- Hallucinations- Intrusive thoughts- Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder- Phobias- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder- Self-harm- Sleep disorders- Substance addiction- Suicide & attempted suicide- Suicidal ideationAlcohol and Drugs- Alcohol consumption & abuse- Drug abuse- Drugging- OverdosePregnancy and Childbirth- Abortion- Childbirth- Infertility- Involuntary adoption- Involuntary pregnancy- Miscarriage- Pregnancy- Sterilization- Stillbirth- Teen and child pregnancyBlood, Injury & Medical- Blood & gore depiction- Body horror- Body modifications- Coma- Hospitalisation- Loss of autonomy- Loss of limb- Medical experimentation- Medical treatment & procedures- Mutilation- Needles- Paralysis- Physical injuries- Physical illness- Scars- Starvation & dehydration- Sterilization- Surgery- Weight loss & gainDeath and Loss- Death from exposure- Death of a child- Death of a friend- Death of a parent & guardian- Death of a partner & spouse- Grief & loss depictionViolence and Crime- Asphyxia, strangulation & suffocation- Captivity & confinement- Disappearance of a loved one- Home invasion- Imprisonment & incarceration- Kidnapping- Knife, sword & axe violence- Murder & attempted murder- Physical assault- TortureWar and Genocide- Genocide- Massacres & mass murder- War themes & military violenceThe dog survives and experiences no harm!