The Access List: A Novel

Zara Elise Monroe has built a life that looks exactly like success. Corner office. Thriving career. A wellness brand she's quietly building in the margins of everything else. At thirty-two, she is competent, composed, and completely - invisibly - unraveling.She knows how to show up for everyone. She has forgotten how to show up for herself.When a new face walks into her carefully managed world, and a long-overdue reckoning follows her home from a 3 am drive through Midtown Atlanta, Zara is forced to confront a truth she has been outrunning for years: Somewhere between becoming indispensable and becoming professional and becoming everything everyone needed her to be, she set down the compass that used to guide her. The one she built herself, at fifteen years old, on a military base at the edge of the world, after life handed her a wound and her father handed her wisdom she wouldn't fully understand for another decade.The Access List is a story about desire and discernment. About the men we let in and the ones we should. About the friends who drain and the ones who hold. About the version of yourself you left somewhere, and whether it's too late to go back for her.It is also unapologetically a story that will make you forget to put it down.