Trying Not To Disappear

Some people survive. Others just learn to disappear. Max Okeke escaped the Black-Box at twelve years old. That facility had no interest in names, only numbers. It ran experiments it called necessary, on children it called subjects. Max survived by doing the only thing that kept him safe inside those walls: feeling nothing. Years later, he arrives at college with one goal: keep moving, keep his head down, and stay invisible. Then he meets Muriel. Muriel does not fit any pattern he can calculate. She is fractured and guarded and achingly familiar in a way that tightens his chest. Despite every instinct warning him to keep his distance, Max cannot stop circling her. And she cannot quite bring herself to push him away. But this is not a story about a boy who learns to feel. Not exactly. Because the past Max believed he had outrun is not finished with him yet. Old threats close in. Loyalties fracture. And in the space between the danger around him and the walls inside him, Max is forced to ask the question he has spent his whole life refusing: What remains of a person when everything they were trained to be is stripped away? Trying Not To Disappear is a YA thriller about survival, identity, and the quiet courage it takes to choose to stay. Perfect for fans of Thirteen Reasons Why, They Both Die at the End, and The Perks of Being a Wallflower.

Pagina's: 284, Paperback, Independently published